John Newton's Letters
Seriously engaged about trifles
November, 1775
Dear sir,
In the midst of the hurries and changes of this unsettled state—we glide
along swiftly towards an unchangeable world; and shall soon have as little
connection with the scenes we are now passing through, as we have with what
happened before the Flood! All which appears great and interesting in the
present life, abstracted from its influence upon our internal character, and
our everlasting destiny—will soon be as unreal as a dream of the night. This
we know and confess; but, though our judgments are convinced, it is
seldom that our hearts are duly affected by the thought. And while I
find it easy to write in this moralizing strain, I feel myself disposed to
be seriously engaged about trifles—and trifling in the most
serious concerns—as if I believed the very contrary!
It is with good reason the Lord challenges as his own
prerogative, the full knowledge of the deceitfulness, desperate wickedness,
and latent depths of the human heart, which is capable of making even his
own people so shamefully inconsistent with themselves, and with their
acknowledged principles.
I find that, when I have something agreeable in
expectation, that my imagination paints and prepares the scene
beforehand, hurries me over the intervening space of time, as though it were
a useless blank, and anticipates the pleasure I propose. Many of my thoughts
of this kind are mere waking dreams; for perhaps the opportunity I am
eagerly waiting for, never happens—but is swallowed up by some unforeseen
disappointment; or if not, something from within or without prevents its
answering the idea I had formed of it.
Nor does my imagination confine itself within the narrow
limits of probabilities; it can busy itself as eagerly in ranging
after dreams and impossibilities, and engage my attention to the ideal
pursuit of things which are never likely to happen. In these respects my
imagination travels with wings; so that if the wildness, the
multiplicity, the variety of the phantoms which pass through my mind
in the space of a winter's day, were known to my fellow-creatures, they
would probably deem me, as I am often ready to deem myself—but a more sober
and harmless kind of lunatic!
But if I endeavor to put this active, roving power in a
right track, and to represent to myself those scenes, which, though not yet
present, I know will soon be realized, and have a greatness which the most
enlarged exercise of my powers cannot comprehend. But if I would fix my
thoughts upon the hour of death, the end of the world, the coming of the
omniscient Judge, or similar subjects—then my imagination is presently tame,
cold, and jaded, travels very slowly, and is soon wearied in the road of
truth; though in the fairy fields of uncertainty and folly it can
skip from mountain to mountain!
Mr. Addison supposes, that the imagination alone,
as it can be differently affected, is capable of making us either
inconceivably happy, or inconceivably miserable. I am sure it is capable of
making us miserable, though I believe it seldom gives us much pleasure—but
such as is to be found in a fool's paradise! But I am sure, that were
my outward life and conduct perfectly free from blame, the disorders
and defilement of my imagination are sufficient to constitute me a
chief sinner, in the sight of Him to whom the thoughts and intents
of the heart are continually open—and who is of purer eyes than to
behold iniquity!
Upon this head I cannot but lament how universally,
almost, education is suited, and as it were designed—to add to the
stimulus of depraved nature. A cultivated imagination is commended and
sought after as a very desirable talent, though it seldom means more than
the possession of a large stock of other people's dreams and fables, with a
certain quickness in compounding them, enlarging upon them, and exceeding
them by inventions of our own. Poets, painters, and even historians, are
employed to assist us, from our early years—in forming an habitual relish
for shadows and colorings, which both indispose for the
search of truth, and even unfit its for its reception, unless proposed
just in our own way!
The best effect of the Belles Letters upon the
imagination, seems generally expressed by the word Taste. And what is
this taste—but a certain disposition which loves to be humored,
soothed, and flattered, and which can hardly receive or bear the most
important truths, if they are not decorated and set off with such a delicacy
and address, as taste requires? I say the most important truths; because
truths of a secular importance strike so closely upon the senses,
that the decision of taste perhaps is not waited for.
Thus, if a man is informed of the birth of his child, or
that his house is on fire, the message takes up his thoughts, and he is
seldom much disgusted with the manner in which it is delivered. But
what an insuperable bar is the refined taste of many, to their profiting by
the preaching of the Gospel, or even to their hearing it? Though the subject
of a gospel discourse is weighty, and some just representation given of the
evil of sin, the worth of the soul, and the love of Christ; yet, if there is
something amiss in the elocution, language, or manner of the preacher,
people of taste must be possessed, in a good measure, of grace likewise—if
they can hear him with tolerable patience. And perhaps three fourths of
those who are accounted the most sensible and judicious in the auditory,
will remember little about the sermon—but the tone of the voice, the
awkwardness of the attitude, the obsolete expressions, and the like; while
the poor and simple, not being encumbered with this hurtful
accomplishment, receive the messenger as the Lord's servant, and the
truth as the Lord's Word, and are comforted and edified.
But I stop. Some people would say, that I must suppose
you to have but little taste, or else much grace, or I should not venture to
trouble you with such letters as mine.