"I was a stricken deer, that left the herd
Long since. With many an arrow deep infixed
My panting side was charged, when I withdrew,
To seek a tranquil death in distant shades.
There was I found by One who had Himself
Been hurt by the archers. In His side He bore,
And in His hands and feet, the cruel scars.
With gentle force soliciting the darts,
He drew them forth, and healed, and bade me live!" —Cowper.
"It was in this extremity it occurred to her that, in the
deficiency of all hope in creatures, there might be hope and help in God.
Borne down by the burdens of a hidden providence (a providence which she
did not then love, because she did not then understand it) she yielded to the
pressure that was upon her, and began to look to Him in whom alone there is
true assistance."—Madame Guyon's Life, p. 38.
"As the deer pants after the water-brooks, so pants my soul
after you, O God."—Verse 1.
Are we not warranted to infer that it was the wounded
stag which David now saw, or pictured he saw, seeking the brooks?—the deer
hit by the archers, with blood-drops standing on its flanks, and its eye
glazed with faintness, exhaustion, and death? But for these wounds it would
never have come to the Valley. It would have been nestling still up in its
native heath—the thick furze and cover of the mountain heights of Gilead. But
the shaft of the archer had sped with unerring aim; and, with distended
nostril and quivering limb, it hastens to allay the rage of its death-thirst.
Picture of David, yes, and of many who have been driven to
drink of that "river, the streams whereof make glad the city of God." They are
wounded spirits; the arrow festering in their souls, and drawing
their lifeblood. Faint, trembling, forlorn, weary, they have left the world's
high ground—the heights of vanity, and indifference, and self-righteousness,
and sin—and have sought the lowly Valley of humiliation.
What are some of these arrows? There are arrows from the
quiver of MAN, and arrows from the quiver of GOD.
The arrows of man are often the cruelest of all.
"Lo, the wicked bend their bow, they make ready their arrow upon the string,
that they may privily shoot at the upright in heart." (Ps. 11:2) ENVY is
an archer. His shaft is dipped in gall and wormwood. JEALOUSY is a bowman,
whose barbed weapons cannot stand the prosperity of a rival. REVENGE has his
quiver filled with keen points of steel, that burn to retaliate the real
or imagined injury. MALICE is an archer that seeks his prey in
ambush. He lurks behind the rock. He inflicts his wanton mischief—irreparable
injury—on the absent or innocent. CONTEMPT is a bowman of soaring aim. He
looks down with haughty, supercilious scorn on others. The teeth of such "are
spears and arrows, and their tongue a sharp sword." (Ps. 57:4.) DECEIT—He is,
in these our days, a huntsman of repute—a modern Nimrod—with gilded arrows in
his quiver, and a bugle, boasting great things, slung at his belt. He makes
his target the unsuspecting; decoys them, with siren look, within his toils,
and leaves them, wounded and helpless, on "the mountains of prey!" "Save
me, O Lord, from lying lips and from deceitful tongues. What will he do to
you, and what more besides, O deceitful tongue? He will punish you with a
warrior's sharp arrows, with burning coals of the broom tree." Psalm
120:2-4
But there are arrows also from the quiver of GOD. "The
arrows of the Almighty," says Job, "are within me, the poison whereof
drinks up my spirit." (Job 6:4.) "He has bent His bow," says
Jeremiah, "and set me as a mark for the arrow. He has caused the arrows of
His quiver to enter into my heart." (Lam. 3:12, 13.) And who will not
breathe the prayer of the Gilead Exile at another time?—"Let me fall into
the hands of God, for great are HIS mercies!" "Faithful are the wounds of THIS
friend." (2 Sam. 24:14; Prov. 27:6.)
We need not stop to enumerate particularly these arrows.
There is the blanched arrow of sickness, the rusted arrow of poverty,
the lacerating arrow of bereavement, stained and saturated with tears,
and feathered from our own bosoms! There is the arrow, too, (though of a
different kind,) of God's own blessed Word, "For the word of God is living
and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to
dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and
attitudes of the heart." "Your arrows are sharp in the heart of the
King's enemies." (Ps. 45:5.)
Yet, blessed be God, these are often arrows which wound
only to heal; or rather, which, from the wounds they create, send the
bleeding, panting, thirsting soul to seek the waters of comfort in God
himself. Suffering one! be thankful for your wounds. But for these shafts you
might have been, at this moment, sleeping on the mountain heights of
self-righteousness, or worldliness, or sin, with no thought of your soul; the
streams of salvation disowned; forsaking, and continuing to forsake, the
"Fountain of Living Waters."
Let me ask, Has this been the result of your woundings?
Have they led you from the "broken (leaky) cistern" to say, "All my springs
are in YOU?" Remember that affliction, worldly calamity, and bereavement, have
a twofold effect. It is a solemn alternative! They may drive you nearer to, or
they may drive you farther from, your God. They may drive you down to the
gushing stream, or farther up the cold, freezing mountain-side. The wounded
deer of this Psalm, on receiving the sting of the arrow, might have plunged
only deeper and deeper into the toils of the huntsmen, or the solitudes of the
forest. It might have gone with its pining eye, and broken heart, and bleeding
wound, to bury itself amid the withered leaves.
How many there are whose afflictions seem to lead to this
sad consequence; who, when mercies and blessings are removed, abandon
themselves to sullen and morbid fretfulness; who, instead of bowing submissive
to the hand that wounds and is able to heal, seem to feel as if they were
divested of their rights. Their language is the bitter reproach of Jonah—"I
do well to be angry, even unto death." Muffling themselves in hardened
unbelief, their wretched solace is that of despair—"It is better for me to
die than to live."
"Blessed is the man that ENDURES temptation," not who
rushes away to pine, and bleed, and die—or to feed still on husks and the
garbage of the wilderness, but who makes the nobler resolve, "I will arise
and go to my Father." Blessed is the man whose cry, like that of the
child, is answered by his Heavenly Parent bending over the cradle of his
sorrow—who feels, as the psalmist did, that his gracious Father and God is
never so near him as in a time of trial. "When my spirit was overwhelmed,
THEN YOU knew my path." The bird of the desert is said to bury its head in
the sand on the approach of its foes, and to abandon itself to destruction;
but blessed is the man who rather is like the bird of the grove, the first
twigs of whose nest have been ruthlessly pulled to pieces by the hand of
violence. Hovering for a while over her pillaged home, she fills the forest
with her plaintive lament, then soars away from the haunt of the destroyer to
begin a fresh one, in a place of safety, on the top branch of some cedar of
God!
Such was the case with David on the occasion of this Psalm.
He had read to him the most touching homily the world could read on the
precarious tenure of earthly blessings. His scepter, his crown, his family,
were like the bubbles on that foaming stream on which he gazed, dancing their
little moment on its surface, then gone, and gone forever. Is he to abandon
himself to an ignoble despair? Is he to conclude that the Lord has made him a
target on which to exhaust His quiver—that He has "forgotten to be gracious?"
Is he to join marauding chiefs beyond the Jordan, savage freebooters—to become
a mountain adventurer on these Gentile borders, and forget Zion and Zion's
God? No! the earthly crown may fade, but the homeless, uncrowned, unsceptred
monarch has a better home and a better King above; invisible walls and
battlements, better than all the trenches and moats of an earthly fortress,
encompass the wanderer. With his eye on these, thus he weaves his warrior
song—"I will say of the Lord, He is my rock, and my fortress, and my
deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my shield, and the horn
of my salvation, and my high tower." (Ps. 18:2.)
Reader! let me ask you, in closing this chapter, are you
panting for God?
This is not the way—this is not the history of most.
They are panting, but not for God! They are panting up the hill, like
Sisyphus, with their huge stone. Ambition is panting up the hill—no
time to take a breath. Pleasure is panting up the hill—pursuing her
butterfly existence—a phantom chase—rushing from flower to flower, extracting
all the luscious sweets she can. Fame is panting up the hill, blowing
her trumpet before her, eager to erect her own monument on the coveted apex.
Mammon is pushing up the hill with his panting team, to erect the
temple of riches. Multitudes of hapless wayfarers in the same reckless
scramble have tumbled into crevices, and are crying for help. Mammon's wheels
are locked—his treasure-chests have fallen into the mire—and yet, on he
goes, driving his jaded steeds over the poor, and weak, and helpless—yes,
those that assisted him to load before he started at the mountain base. He
must gain the top at all hazards as best he may; and he will be crowned a
hero, too, and lauded for his feat!
Ah! strange that men should still be pursuing that
phantom-chase. Or, rather, strange that they should live so immeasurably
beneath the grandeur of their own destiny; grasping the shallows when they
should be out in the deep sea; furling and warping the sails of immortality,
instead of having every available yard of canvas spread to the breeze of
heaven.
These objects of earthly, perishable pursuit, may do
when the world is bright, the heart unwounded, the eye undimmed. These may do
when the sun shines unclouded in our firmament, when our fields are waving,
when fortune is weaving her golden web, and the bark of existence with its
white sails is holding its way through summer seas. These may do when the home
circle is unbroken; when we miss no loved face, when we mark no silent voice,
no vacant chair. But when the muffled drum takes the place of life's
joyous music—when our skies are robed in sackcloth, when Nature takes on its
hue of ashen paleness; when every flower, seared and frostbitten, seems to
droop its head in sadness and sorrow, and hide its tears amid withered leaves
and blighted stems, exuding only the fragrance of decay!—what then? The
prophet's voice takes up the lesson—"The voice said, Cry; and he said, What
shall I cry? All flesh is grass, and all the glory of man as the flower of the
grass!" Poor trifler that you are! to be so long mocked and deceived by a
dead and dying world; desolate, friendless, hopeless, portionless; a vessel
driven from its moorings, out unpiloted on a tempestuous sea! BUT there is a
haven for the tempest-tossed. The Savior you have long despised and rejected,
is a provided harbor for such as you. "A MAN shall be an hiding-place from
the wind, a covert from the tempest, as rivers of water in a dry place, the
shadow of a great rock in a weary land." (Isaiah 32:2.) Are you panting
after the streams of salvation? The Shepherd who feeds His flock by these
"still waters" thus addresses you—"Come! Whoever is thirsty, let him
come; and whoever wishes, let him take the free gift of the water of life."
Rev. 22:17
Thirsty! who is not thirsty? It is the attribute of
universal humanity! Who does not feel that this world is presenting us with
muddy streams and broken, leaky cisterns? Who does not feel, in their moments
of deep and calm reflection, when we are brought face to face with the great
enigma of existence, that the world is serving up faded flowers instead of
those redolent with imperishable fragrance, and glowing with unfading bloom?
Friendless one!—you who are standing alone like a
solitary tree in the forest whom the woodman's axe has spared—your friends and
family cut down at your side—COME!
Child of calamity!—the chill hand of poverty laid on
your earthly comforts—the widow's cruise fast failing, her staff of bread
diminishing—COME!
Child of bereavement!—the pillars in your heart-shrine
crumbling to decay, your head bowed like a bulrush—you who know that fortune
may again replace and replenish her dismantled walls, but that nothing can
reanimate your still marble, or refill the vacant niche in your heart of
hearts—COME!
Prodigal!—wanderer from God, exile from peace, roaming
the forest-haunts of sin, plunging deeper and deeper into their midnight of
ruin and despair—has an arrow, either from the quiver of man, or of God,
wounded your heart? Are you, in your agony, seeking rest and finding
none—having the gnawing feeling of dissatisfaction with all created things,
and an undefined longing for a solace they cannot give? Yes! for you,
too, for your gaping, bleeding wound there is "balm in Gilead, and a Physician
there." I repeat, Jesus this day stands by the glorious streams of His own
purchased salvation, and cries, saying—"If any man THIRST, let him come
unto me and drink!"
"Yes, Lord!" be it yours to reply—"Lord, I come!
thirsty, faint, forlorn, wounded, weary! I come, 'just as I am, without one
plea.' You are all I need, all I require, in sickness and health, in joy and
in sorrow, in life and in death, in time and through eternity. The snow-clad
hills may cease to feed the brooks—that sun may cease to shine, or nature grow
weary of his loving beams—that moon may cease on her silver lyre, night by
night, to discourse to the listening earth—the birds may become mute at the
voice of the morning—flowers may droop, instead of ringing their thousand
bells at the jubilant step of summer—the gasping pilgrim may rush from the
stream, and prefer the fiery furnace-glow of the desert sands—but "this God
shall be my God forever and ever;" and, even when death is sealing my eyes,
and the rush of darkness is coming over my spirit, even then will I take up
the old exile strain—the great sigh of weary humanity—and blend its notes with
the song of heaven—'as the deer pants after the water-brooks, so pants my soul
after You, O GOD.'"