Now I am accursed indeed!

(Thomas Doolittle, "Love to Christ Necessary to Escape the Curse at His Coming!" 1693)

"If any man does not love the Lord Jesus Christ - let him be Anathema! (or accursed)." 1 Corinthians 16:22

To be Anathema is to be cursed really - sentenced to real pains and real torments. These will be . . .
  so great,
  so grievous,
  so many,
  so extreme,
  so continual,
  and so universal -
that they shall wring out a confession from you: "Now I am accursed indeed!"

To lie in these flames which cannot be quenched, to burn in this fire in which I cannot be consumed - is such a curse, and so intolerable, that will make you curse the day in which you were born, and curse the time you ever lived in this world - because not better improved, to escape that curse you lie under in Hell.

You shall cry out and roar, "Woe is me - a poor miserable wretch! I am tormented in this place, and cannot have one drop of water to refresh and cool my parched tongue! Woe is me - a poor cursed scoundrel! I am in pain - in extremity of pain - and have no ease! Alas! I toss and tumble in this bed of flames, and cannot rest! If I wander from one side of Hell unto another - I cannot find one corner where I might have a little rest! Oh! cursed creature, that I did not love Christ! If I had loved Christ as much above the world, as I loved the world above Christ - then I might have been among the blessed saints, and not in the midst of such a cursed crew! Had I loved Christ so much more than sin, as I loved sin more than Christ - then I might have been a blessed one. But because I did not love Christ - I am now this cursed wretch! I am as cursed as cursed can be! I was told that, for lack of love to Christ - this would be my accursed state. And now, for lack of love to Jesus - it is my accursed state forever! I was told that if I do not love Christ - I would be Anathema! I did not love Christ - and now I am Anathema!"