Now I am accursed indeed!
(Thomas Doolittle, "Love to Christ Necessary to Escape the Curse at His Coming!" 1693)
"If any man does not love the Lord Jesus Christ — let him be Anathema! (or accursed)." 1 Corinthians 16:22
To be Anathema is to be cursed really — sentenced to real pains and real torments. These will be . . .
and so universal —
that they shall wring out a confession from you: "Now I am accursed indeed!"
To lie in these flames which cannot be quenched, to burn in this fire in which I cannot be consumed — is such a curse, and so intolerable, that will make you curse the day in which you were born, and curse the time you ever lived in this world — because not better improved, to escape that curse you lie under in Hell.
You shall cry out and roar, "Woe is me — a poor miserable wretch! I am tormented in this place, and cannot have one drop of water to refresh and cool my parched tongue! Woe is me — a poor cursed scoundrel! I am in pain — in extremity of pain — and have no ease! Alas! I toss and tumble in this bed of flames, and cannot rest! If I wander from one side of Hell unto another — I cannot find one corner where I might have a little rest! Oh! cursed creature, that I did not love Christ! If I had loved Christ as much above the world, as I loved the world above Christ — then I might have been among the blessed saints, and not in the midst of such a cursed crew! Had I loved Christ so much more than sin, as I loved sin more than Christ — then I might have been a blessed one. But because I did not love Christ — I am now this cursed wretch! I am as cursed as cursed can be! I was told that, for lack of love to Christ — this would be my accursed state. And now, for lack of love to Jesus — it is my accursed state forever! I was told that if I do not love Christ — I would be Anathema! I did not love Christ — and now I am Anathema!"